I wanted to preserve a few of my former blogs from blogspot. So, here they are.
Posted Monday, September 21, 2009
“Unintentional Multi-tasking” We all do it. You know what I’m talking about. Your daughter (or son) says, “Mom, can I have some apple juice?” So you go into the kitchen (after coercing a ‘please’ out of them, of course) to get the juice. On the way, there’s a piece of trash on the floor. Probably left by one of the kids…or your husband. Bending over to pick it up and toss it in the trash, you mutter to yourself, “Why can’t they just throw things away?” What was I doing? Oh yeah…apple juice. Cup from the cupboard. Check. Apple juice from the fridge. Check. Oh wait. Those leftovers are growing fur. Let’s toss those out. Might as well rinse out the dish and put it in the dishwa… wait, I can’t. It’s full of clean dishes. Ok, time to empty the dishwasher. Done. And now I can fill it back up with dirty dishes. Crap…I spilled water on the floor. Should I mop? Nah, I’d have to sweep, too. I’ll do that tomorrow. BUZZ. The clothes are dry. So I get them out of the dryer to fold. Now let’s put another load in the wash…”MOM! Where’s my apple juice?!” “Coming!” I say. I sure got a lot done this evening.
Posted Sunday, September 20, 2009
“A long awaited first” As soon as a child is born, moms and dads have expectations. Most of these expectations come in the form of “firsts”… the first word, first steps, etc. And when Olivia was born, I mourned a lot of firsts. Wrongly so, I realize, for my daughter will still experience them, even if they come at a delayed rate. And yesterday, as I felt her jagged little “first”, I was reminded of this. And I smiled. And she smiled, too.
Posted Friday, June 5, 2009
“Changes” It’s scary, the things you think and feel when you realize you have a child with a disability. I knew the minute I looked at Olivia that she had Down syndrome. I was scared and selfish. And I hoped beyond hope that I was wrong.
It didn’t take long to realize that she was meant for us and we were meant for her. She has made me the person I am today. Seems strange that in just a few months of life, she has given me years of wisdom. I thought I was supposed to teach her? Hmmmm…
I would never wish the unexpected and seemingly bad upon anyone. But I will always wish for people to share the same view on life that I now posses. I feel so lucky to have been given this gift called perspective. Where before I saw trees, I now see trees with vibrant greens, birds flying overhead, blooms that breathe new life. Details. Importance. Love. Hope. Beauty. My family. Olivia.